Day 304
Seeing beyond the moment is a gift. I am still struggling in the addictive habits developed during my acting-out, and that casts a lingering shadow over my productivity. It seems I'm able to move forward in nearly every part of my life and thinking, except for my job. There may indeed be other issues involved in that problem, but it is a problem nonetheless that I am closer to releasing than to fixing. I do not remember another time in my life where I had such a mental block engulf me whenever I would endeavor to work, especially when I'm trying to work on vision and planning projects. This struggle weighs on me heavily, and I do not feel there is a simple answer, but maybe there is. Maybe I just haven't seen it yet. Perhaps I just don't have the courage to do it. Yet.
–JR
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