Day 448
It has been more than 500 days since I started with the counseling that helped me face my addiction. That therapy started nearly 100 days after I began attending SAA meetings regularly. Both seem like a lifetime ago, but I know that it's little more than a good start.
When I read and hear about re-discovering the "beauty of everything that surrounds us..." I sometimes say to myself,
"Well, when the hell do I get mine?"
Then I remember where I was 500 days ago and how close I was to no longer being anywhere. It sometimes takes that reminder of how far I've come, to get perspective on the journey and patience for the promises.
I am an addict. I want everything now, perhaps by definition. So I'll remember that the trend line is awesome, and I will gently chastise myself for my impatience.
I will be grateful for the relative abundance of sunshine while eagerly awaiting whatever my Higher Power has in store for me along the way.
–JR
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